2003-06-19 // 3:52 a.m.

i woke up, calld around, got my money from Natalie... i meant to hug her or something, but didnt cuz i was holding back the dog.. in retrospect, it was a good thing.. she still likes kiel, and well.. i cant stop thinking about Jamie.

so anywayz, dwight says he'll be over.. at some point

i watch 3 episodes of Yamamoto Yohko in Japanese w/ the subtitles on ... hehehe.. it was fun...

then dwight came, we went to his house, randomly ate at this McD's near his home.. saw this cashier girl that was fine, but my mind went totally blank.. i couldnt think to say anything really... i mean, spent the H4rDC0r3 and everything... .. odd

and, of course, everyone was going to dwight to play Hunter... im not really into -any- Rp anymore... it kinda lost its point, i mean, once i managed to put everything i do into game-terms, life became the Rp, so Rp'ing is like playing those goofy-side-games instead of the entire game itself... just pointless. plus theres the whole 'kept tihnking about Jamie thing'

Melissa and some random girl showd up, and combined with alyssa managed to end the gaming. Girls + Game doesnt work. ever. im not sure why...

dwiz seemd interested in that random girl, but while i was half-sleeping, i noticed her frequent glances at me... which reinforces my thoery, girls wont like you if you nice and like them. even if your dwight. *lol* ... but whatever, i had little interest, and that was before what alyssa had to say about her... *yawn*

then i got a ride home w/ Dan n Dwiz... in Dan's lil Escort *not indian dan, but placerville dan*

i did 14 or 15 pushups *barely* and ran ... both are getting easyer... the first time i tried i barely did 3. Three. i think my back n titty muscles are underdeveloped or somethin... cuz i never really use them? i can lift stuff... i dont think those miscle help lift...?

*doesnt know*

whatever

trm is having gran call saying im sick.. im going ot the navy office at 4-5'ish.. out at 7-7:30 ... Keck wants me to go to the boardwalk... ... um.. i dont know or when or where or anything.. so im not-caring

i talked to Dwiz about going to prescott... hes down, as long as i can muster the cash. he estimates $300. about right .... i dont have $300 tho.

better start with the saving :)

maby i can pull a loan out from The-Bank-Of-Ely *lol* ... ill offer the house as colateral :D

still.. lots of saving

iv decided to treat this as a direct challenge to my H4rDC0r3. an ultimate cock-slap to my self-esteem. I Will Win. Im thinking to only things that can stop me will be Jamie, or ~death~. 11th thru 14th. that weekend.

~ It's Tyme All Of You Learned ~Just~ Who You Picked A Fight With!!!

::Dismantle }{ Recycle::

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