2004-10-01
// 9:08 p.m.
okay, i hav alot of notebook journal to type. maybe even some backtracking?
23SEP04 @ 0943
ok, where did i leave off.. oh yeah, FUCK THIS PLACE~!
I dont know how much you know. The weekend I drank, almost got a tattoo, and met the lead singer-guy of flogging molly! coolies!
Underway has been lameness. as usual. 'carr' has been replaced by "warren". hes not as cool, but whatever. i've taken over as the experienced FSA, and of course theres something wrong with the place every morning. CS2 dean is trying to get me sent to S-2.... heh. fuckin fag... This OME sounds real official, but nothings happened yet.
yesterday i had a mosebleed as i was trying to sleep. pretty bad one too. weirdness.... i felt it happening so i grabbed my rag-sock and yeah... i decided to sleep on my back cuz of it.
No real news, just the cycle-> work shower sleep slave work shower sleep ...
Simmons is the daycrew scullery FSA, and he told "looney" a cute girl working nights in Aft Galley that i thought she was hot. she didnt seem to mind from what he told me.. she obviously doesnt at all know me.
that kind of a depressing thought.
...
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25SEP04 @ 0605
Not much to report really.
Girls are retarded. i still kinda like Becky. looney likes some other dude. most girls i'd think to like are very far away. Cs2 dean is still out to get me, but doesnt nearly have enough brains to catch me in any kind of wrongdoing and really has no significant power over me. i keep wishing i could go back in time and change something. anything really, just make things happier or different somehow.
My future seems too far away ....
I think thats it...
oh wait
OME may be happening, or at least begining as soon as wednesday. and on the 2nd (next weekend) Shannon (old ely friend back home) is having a "pajama's party" ... heh ...
so yeah, maybe im just short-sighted?
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28SEP04 @ 0008
So let me tell you where my thoughts are right now. im thinking about combiningthe two most successful mental-states iv had into one and seeing if life getts better.
i cant lie to myself and say girls dont matter, but i can act like it :D and then ill just lie, do what i used to, do what everyone else does. fuck being a good person; at least for now.
im thinking ill actually lure someone worth my time into my clutches w/ my fake cool ness (kinda like lauren's) then tell them everything they wanna hear for a few months (like jill n jennifer).
It should work, right?
i also need some midnite homies; preferably civilians. Kinda like i had back home, kinda more like i had in P-Cola. im doin laundry im so bored!!
im gonna walk around a bunch too... i think.
***INTERMISSION: 0028 ***
i was gonna go home this weekend. no, i prolly wont get to go home, they are almost certain to be having me work. i may not even get -any- of the weekend off, that what really sucks. i wish i could just get pulled back to my division so i can start getting normal amounts of time off.
trying to think of more to write. my plans also include trying to find a drycleaning & alterations shop that does 'same day' stuff. but i dont kno how thats gonna work out. Also im thinking of going downtown, checking for a cybercafe or something thats still open this late. it was nice having XS right outside of corry, i kinda wish there was one here like that too.
Well, im'a go fer nows. i may even get to type this tonite? :D
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29SEP04 @ 0211
i was awake all last nite. wandering up & down midway dr. alot fo neat shops. still havnt found a 24-hr cybercafe. good chances there isnt one in SD. w34k. tonite i hung out w/ dawn most of the day, got a little sleep. she kicked me out at around 1040 cuz shes gotten in trouble for having E3 and below overnight and they not-showing to work or duty. once was me, and i guess a few other ppl a few other times. well, i try to find an open cybercafe, went to the one on midway dr but it was already closed. then i drove around awhile, got lost in/around fashion valley mall. i finally went park-hunting. Useing the map, i'd find a park, then go to it. a few were 'ok~', but one, down near/on/is Ocean Beach. that one was neat, and there were ppl, actual non-gang white ppl. sweetness.
But i was alone & didnt want trouble so i left. i went to the little park in coronado and swang on the swings. it was cool kinda, i realized i had it way ultra-better in P-Cola, i dont have a place to talk to God, and that sucks. for tonite i think im gonna go to the ship & read until its time to get ready for that stupid inspection. i think quarters is 0615, at least thats when im gonna be there. and of course i'll be in blues so they know im not about to actually -work- this morning. once the inspection is over im'a og sleepytime till work tonite. i hate that place. and to think im stuck going on the next underway. not cool. hopefully ill be off this wretched ship sometime in OCTOBER~.
if im lucky ill get transfer-leave.
im gonna go tho ~
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i work tonite at 0000 .... thats nidnite.
im gonna try to see Shaun of the Dead, cuz it looks real funny.
and im scared of zombies
so yeah
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::Dismantle }{ Recycle::
Another spring, 2012 - 2012-04-28
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I really hope no body reads this stuff anymore... this would be a crying shame ~! - 2007-03-20
...In years to come it might make sense; Sweetness, Did You Foresee This **? - 2007-03-10
