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}{ i need sleepytime ~ oh and maybe an important rant }{

2004-08-19 // 9:04 p.m.

too much un-sleep



im supposed to be sleeping. heh. yeah right.

just work, like fuckin always

yesterday i went to the mall alone, and since i forgot my CD's, i bought my car a copy of Iowa. happiness.

i went to do laundry at a pay-place. not cool, but i calld ppl

and the only two to pick up were Lauren, then Jill. yeah

lauren was being a punk, i expected nothing less tho ... actually she was a lil more nice than i would hav thought .... but whatever.

then

Jill.

yeah, its bein awhile since youv heard of her. ...

well i called and we talked and i think she might even talk to me more. im kinda scared of the whole thing, and then of course all those crazy ideas come back of us magically getting back together n such ........

but im gonna divert fer a second here ~

CS2 said he was gonna try to hook me up with his nephew in the phillipines, cuz she kinda needs a way over, but he doesnt want her wit just any guy .....

which both those things happening in such a close timeframe made me think

maybe im not destined to have the first wife be the only, or even close to long term ........... maybe that whole goddamn idealistic way of thinking is stupid anyways, i mean jill is gone, so whats to say that things wont be the same in this? yeah i can 'hope' for better... but that fuckin stupid too.... hope doesnt do shit. its action, hard work, those get stuff accomplished

so yeah

maybe ill give this is a shot...

or maybe im feeling triple crazy from no-sleep and lotsa work

so yeah

sleepytime

::Dismantle }{ Recycle::

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