2003-11-16 // 2:08 p.m.

9165215422 call me on a weekend, cuz you love me
Why Don't You Still Love Me?
...oh wait, nevermind. :P *lol*

i almost ended up shifting alot of my day into the private' entry section .... but then i realized that that goes against my current moral code, which i hav also had a kind of re-vamp in .... first chronology ->>>

ok, i checked my finances, and two very uncoolies things. i cant e-pay off the credit card, and they only paid me 1/4 of what i was supposed to get this month.. im gonna deal with that monday tho. anywayz, so im pretty sure this is the first time i ended up kissing sharon (or was i kissed, dunno) either way, she left, and i went back to base. somehow the day itself went by and turned into nighttime, i didnt eat lunch, i think i jacked on again at 33A fer most of this gap in memory ... later that nite i meet someone at corry online, potencially a drinking buddy? i dunno, she had plans tho, we meet breifly tho. anywayz. i got caught up in watchin movies in the ghetto-lounge instead of rollerblading, and i think i may not go until i get my blades which wont be till christmas vacation but oh well... we watch movies, then we listen to music .. the whole time theres random conversations n stuff... katie, vander-something, me, and some girl (shes hot, iv notcied her around, but i still dont kno her name) .. anyways, a few people would come and go but it was mainly us. dwiz calls, i talk to him a bunch ...apparently im a legend now back home, lil kidz wanna be me, shit like that. weird.. we talk breifly about morals, about not giving in to darkness, i didnt quite 'feel' those morals anymore tho ...

... i get sick of there dumpy music and bring myne own fer awhile .... then at some random point i disable the radio-remote cuz the vander-dude kept changin the song ... the way i did it was without looking i popped a batterie out n backwards... and there was some random thinky in there ... now whats scary is as soon as vander-dude found it broken she says "check the batteries, ones backwards" .. and he found tghe backwards batterie... im freaked, but to disspell this i ask "okay, which batterie was backwards" ... and she correc tly guesses the 'right' battery ... scaryness.. still freaked, i then ask "okay, then what was my option before that?" .. and she again correctly answers "you were gonna take one" .... fuck.... and totally lose it, take my CDs and run ... but i regain my composion and come back after putting my stuff away and getting my map, cuz im gonna go fer a scary-long walk ... and i ask "okay, what was the step before that, no hints this time, what was the step beforehand" .... she knew the answer, she almost answered, but she changed the subject, then some dude showed up and she left with him ... now, the problem is she had my spikey-straps ... so after hunting for her some, and also watchin another movie, i go sleep... i took her tool-aenima CD tho, hehe

i woke up cuz sharon calld telling me she was at the cafe', but i feel asleep and woke up a lil bit later fer chow not-knowing if i had dreamt it ... anywayz, so i ate, and went to the cafe and, to spare the details, she was all over me.. which of course is a fairly new and bizarre concept ... and she tells me how she wants to do stuff.. and suddenly that moral voice come screaming from whatever lil hidey-hole i locked it in ... it an odd feeling, being kicked in the back on the head by conscience ... but i realized i didnt wanna do anything like that with sharon ... and i obviously have -no- experience in telling someone no, since im usually the one being rejected constantly. so i kinda freeze not-knowing what to do. well, the good Lord has my back, katie calls informing me she acquired my straps. so of course i havta go imediately to claim them. and i do. and im the meantime, johns in trying to d/l Tales Of Phantasia for SNES/rom .. so yeah ... i got jacked on here, 33A and thats that.

talked to the ely online, breifly about this shizz'nit .. and the Nimitz, the same ship my father was on, and id be cool to be there... so ill try.

um

today i havta clean, make sure my uniforms are squared away, fold n stow my laundry ... shit like that ... ill start at around 1900, plenty of time to get done and sleep for monday ... i got new shoes, i think i mentioned this tho... im gonna polish them ... hehehehehe

-0ut

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