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}{ i hate you }{

2003-07-06 // 11:52 p.m.





grr.

today has bein total shit.

well, ok, there were, like, 2 good hours in there.. but not really..

i woke up around 2'ish... didnt get much sleep cuz i was all hyperifyed cuz of hopefully meeting leah... and all plans fell threw.. no dwight, no alyssa.. mom wouldnt take me.. and her mom was gone somewhere..

so, facing defeat, i decide i will be super-H4rDC0r3-determined ... im going to that mall no matter what, even tho it closes at 6 on sunday...

well, plans start re-building'ish.. and it turns out Leah n her friend Megan are gonna go to this park, thats farther away than the mall... and i havta walk... with a broken ankle.

well, i cheat, and use my bike. and i get there way earlier than i expected *i thought i was gonna walk* so i got to wait an hour... grr

it was a fairly enjoyable visit, altho i suck i can never think of anything to talk about...

then megan hasta go... me and leah have even less conversation now... so she calls her mom, and i leave

i get home, and dwight had called... so i was gonna try to get my night started n such, i call around, and dwight says hes gonna come get me.... this was at 10'ish .... by 11:30, it turns out he had forgotten me, and everyone was too messed up now to come get me.

Thanks.

i need new friends

but till then, i need one... old enough to get me alcohol... cravings.. grr..

oh, and then there jamie, who doesnt want me to feel tied down to her .....

of course, its not what you think, its worse... in the same entry, she mentions staying the night at cory's house.. whoever the fuck that guy is...

i should have seen it, i mean, im not special or cool or anything, so why would she wanna be with me... the only reason she prolly even talks to me is cuz im willing to go so far out of my way for her.. she prolly feels guilty or something...

i should have known ... no one will actually like me.

i didnt think winning that challenge would hurt this much

i need to drink.. or cry.. or cut.. or something..

im not in a good mood

-0ut

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