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2003-07-01 // 12:36 a.m. Then it comes to be that the soothing light at the end of your tunnel fuck chronology dwight, i hope your happy. i start liking someone, i start getting attached.. and so it causes this kinda of emotional friction.. lil things that kinda topple out of control somehow into my pain. but, it makes for great rants :) I call Jamie, excepting to hav a nice conversation.. im using the Ely's cellphone, cuz of its unlimited nite-n-weekends.. she answers, and tells me i havta call back in 20 mins, cuz shes busy. busy with what? she wouldnt tell me... but everything about the encounter makes me nervous.. paranoid.. upset.. terribly upset. Jordan calls 15 mins later.. shes still busy... call back in 10 i call... cant think of anything ot say.. somethings distracting her anyways.. she wont tell me what it is, or what she was doing... and now im sitting here totally tripping out... were chatting in the other window... answers pending i suppose... someone named 'g' .... what the hell does that mean??? well, im thinking sadly that i may be right... that everything ends, and its usually much sooner than i would like. the worst part is this is ending before it even started. I Hate My Life. Alot. i need a drink... this may even be an incidence that i use my emergency vodka iv stashed, for an emergency ..... before now i couldnt think of anything so emergency-like i want it..... i want it ....im gonna bust out an *intermission* while i talk to jamie some, wonder suicide, and toy with the idea of over-drinking :D........ back were gonna talk more trm im still terrified... hopefully ill calm down enough ot sleep soon... gonna play Mega Man X4 ... ill tell you bout my day trm and on a final note, two things ... somehow today made me very emoional fragile.. i dont know how.. iv jus felt like crying all day .... second, im almost sure i kno what michelles secret is. but in case im right, i wont post it ;) dwiz, call me :D -0ut
Another spring, 2012 - 2012-04-28
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