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}{ im awake much earlier than im supposed to be. }{

2003-05-28 // 8:49 a.m.

Career: still havnt calld the Navy
Food: pain doesnt mix well with food, but i think ill be hungry laterz
Mood: not good... bad combonations of things making me hate life...

As if you havnt seen me type this before -> I hate my life.

im awake, my throat hurts... i was also awake at 3am. can you count the hours of sleep? 3 to 8 = 5hours! ... and thats not good.

im trying to outthink this pain right now... altho I cant seem to find a solution that isnt "take your medicine" ... i hate hate hate hate taking pillz regularly.

well, the only two things interesting to report that i can think of... last nite a really realy cool Anime porno finished downloading. its really cool, the dialogue especially! *which sounds odd, but its true* shit, Im thinking of buying the series just because of the dialogue!

and then there was this thought yesterday... crazy thought too... maybe I should just totally give up on chicks in general. Ill do what -I- want whenever I want and iggy all of everyone on the dating scene. Cuz I like doing that. Plus alot of my interests dont help in finding someone compatible... like the fact I want pigtails.. it turns out -> most girls dont dig pigtails on a guy. Well, normally im willing to compromise. I actually cut them off for jill, but she didnt seem to appreciate the gesture *and ill be doing the same -to- her later* ... but for now, Im taking a stand, I like my pigtails, and im going to grow them out, and keep them. Im geting bored of the dating-thing.. The only way to get ahead is to lie to, or to mistreat the girl, and I dont want to do that... Id rather do without than havta resort to that, so that makes giving up a very good option. Even doing crazy-ass stunts doesnt sound fun anymore... maby this is jus me being cranky from the sore throat, but im just not in the mood to deal wit that many complications right now. Maby my mind wil change later today... grr

oh, and I find this .... which is now really getting me interested. I think iv always bein fairly submissive *not-sexually* ... and what iv read so far sounds.. well... good.

maby that is the path im gonna take... I dunno, im gonna read more, and im gonna try to not-update till tonite, that way I actually have stuff to type about.

-0ut

::Dismantle }{ Recycle::

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