2003-05-14 // 9:56 p.m.

Career: cant decide, thinking civilian
Food: two quesadilla's i made n ate
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i woke up even more-sick. and that pisses me off.

told gran to call the navyoffice, tell them im not coming today, cuz i hate my life.

wasted today, then dwight came, went to the docotrs at 6:30-7 ... got ou at, like, 8:30. i hav an ear infection, and some viral-throat-infection... lovely. Anti-biotics. Somehow, i need wanted to be on those agin, out of any other drug.. maby im just weird?

he said i better take them all, cuz if i dont, thats how bacteria become immune... so basically, i can be part of the destruction of humanity, jus for not taking a few pills. Sweet. Somebodys gonna die :)

then we visits dwights dad, who had backsurgery

now im home

today has bein so terribly wasteful.... i could hav done so many cooler things.. so so many cooler things

i was up all night talking to dawn las nite.. that was coolies... altho i didnt help the waking-up situation

i was gonna try to us this week to get a job, and try to hav my civilian life start up..... no such luck, cuz im sick.

i cant decide tho.. i need that money.. but i really really dont want to do the job for it... the money isnt really worth it...

im thinking temp agency. im gonna do some H4rDC0r3 calling around trm... janene suggested it hella dayze ago, then agin on mothers day.. i told gran to follow up on it.. i guess i havta become my own adult soon tho.. i hate having to do shit for myself. grr'

thats why i needed jill, she was so good at managing my life... i need that kind of control-factor in my life... i think im erratic, i cant never really -decide- on long-term stuff... ill have goals, but theres always too many plans to get there... it sucks terribly.

so im gonna have amoxicillin .... sounds fun... *not* .... dwight suggested to drink tonite, i looked at him funny.. i dont think pillz n alcohol mix... Alyssa drank the everclear dwight was saving for me... that pisses me off.

*lol* i just took my first pill ... yay!

stupid mom kickd me offline, but i already have the window up.. ill keep typing.

Jamie emaild me.. she sounds cool, she has ADHD, like most of the people i kno, and i think she'd be fun to meet...

but, as usual, the IRL section of stupid lil girls is pissing me off... altho im not getting into it

i need a job... i think once i hav that, i could really go kick some ass... or at least i could pay for stuff i want, right?

but yeah.. thats about it.. hopefully trm ill be feeling more alive and ill go get a job or something?

-0ut

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