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}{ YAY my drunken entry.. first fer this diary }{

2003-05-08 // 10:25 p.m.

i love ppl
they arent my mom
and im drnk

ok... im drunk

YaY!!

so im drunk.. dwight learning how to piss me off enough to chug more vodka *today itz rum or whatever* ... so grr

i tryd to think about my future.. navy or whatever.... but all i can think about is chix0r.. and getting down dwight pants *yea.. go figure*

im watching Imsomnia on .. some channel 22, or 20 or 55 or something

he jus asked if i was gay

i dont wanna be!!!! guys are so fucking awful n gross n shit.. girls are beautiful... i guess is cuz they hurt me so much,... like i wanna run away, go for someone who doesnt hurt.. like dwight

im talking to Ali .,... i feel so awful... shes gonna hate me... dwight typed at her.. i think she doesnt want that.. and shes so cool.. why do i fuck everything up???????????????????????????????????????????????///

:(

damnit,, now im sad.. i dun wanna be sad

it was hella funny tho, dwights all "lauren never liked you!" ... how can i drink when im laughing so hard?

he never said christina tho ......... im glad too

i laughed at jill even? what the hell does that mean?

i drank to my car.. i love my car.... i drank

drank this super-gross rum shit... its not as bad as dwight said, but its still pretty fucked up

i didnt kiss dwight tho! i feel proud

i think i almost tryd.. i mean, i hella grabbd for him like i was gonna.. but then i hella threw him away and fell...

so about carrer

career

hmm...

if i want chicks,i stay civilian..... if i want new chicks.. navy

my mouth is almost complately nub

i alsmost ibit my tonuge

ok.. gonna try to not type

goddamnit

typo mothafucka!

i wanna be more drunk, bit less drunk

more so i can get closer to truth... less cuz its so hard to think about the truth i hav

i keep drooling..wtf?

ok

im thinking civilian..... cu i get to be more-lamen happy... like, i can drink at home

and i can hav sex with chicks *althop sadly, that hasnt happen in almost 2 fucking lame=eass years*

oh my god...

i hate things

onea those things is lameness

and you kno whats alme

not-being-loved *shakes fist at ali*

ok

so im gonna try tot hink agin

i love ppl.. but like, not like the "oh ali i love you" but more like the "oh dwight, and all my other FRIENDS i love you" .. yea kno??>> like, its not the marry sex girlfriend type love.. its like the "your so fucking cool" loove

what..

wait i meant

love oly has one o huh?

oh fuick

im drunkage

****tpyed to ali more... and of course, im being lame******

join my diaryring! cuz if i wasnt drunk id join... and i already joined

yea!

ok.. now ali is making me sad

she doesnt like me but doe but doesnt

damn

im trying to think about careers goddamnit!

ok, you kno what.. i fucking hate career... i like girls!

and money.. but i dont wanna think about that

im so fucking stupid and immature

fuck this!

so yea

keckcalld... hes talking to dwight...

hes gonna try to get me kicked off or type or something... fucking pieces of shit ppl fucking with me

fuck

***INTERMISSIPON* ...

so they havme in a conference chat

i hate cnonverence

grr!

and im drunk

it doesnt

help

i pissed ali off to.. i feel like shit

shitshitshitshitshit... me

cuz i liked her wayt sooner than chrissy or lauren or leslie .... but it her own fault fer not liikng me back

grr!!

fuck carrer!

ill kill myself insead!

no work fer jonnyg

he will die

*crtys* he will die

so yea

work=no fun

no fun = bad

work = bad

im gonna go dioe

or pee brb

crazy thoughts...like what if i rippd my weenie off or something... but thats bad idea.. so i dind

nt

grr

so now i totally cant think... usually this is the part where im running around ounching trees n shit....

whut now?

im trying to think about.... girls or career or whatever

i need a fucking topic

but im drunk, how the fuck am i suppsed to topic?

all i can seem to do is fight in the conference

fuck the confernce

i gues my point is that im hella lame n pathetic n shit and need female-attention hella bad so im hella beind umb or whatever about it and like the dream said i need to get a fucking life and not be so godamn dependent like this....

and navy... fuck navy, cuz i get live anywhere... like, its jus way easier for the money.. but hella harder, yea kno> ....>??>

so what am i to do?

money or freedom?

security or freedom?

oh my god

and what hav i always chosen in the past]

what is my main goddamn fixation.. my entire thing

freedom

oh god

i drunk-figured it out

i hate my life sometymes

so i guess i need to call itt-tech huh

>

>>??

yepper

s

oh, and christina. i had somethin g.. like,m i guess... no, its your fsult im thinking like this... but yes it is. cuz its kinda u=you who i drank to

and cuz if i dont join you have way less to unlike me for

so yea

i thnk i m gonna drnbunk type at ppl now

what now

ungh!

down wit the clown

-0ut

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